Lately I've had to try to figure out how to stay positive in the extended absence of my husband (deployment), and friends going away who I tend to lean on. I really don't like the connotation of missing someone...because it truly focuses on something not there, a part of you gone, it's a taking away. So my current thoughts are pointed in the direction of the person's return. Focusing totally on the complete joy I will feel when I see my husband again...he'll have been gone 9 months total from June last year to July this year...a ton of time to be without your partner. I know when I see him, when I finally lay eyes on him, and see his smile again...my heart will not be complete...it will be running over with joy. I wrote this poem for all the people I used to miss, but for who now I simply appreciate and look forward to...
Longing
I attempted to fill my days
With friends and food
And light and work
But I lingered in my mind.
I fought to forget
Willed myself positive
Fresh, anew, focused
And yet languid time
Dragged and pulled me down.
While you flashed
With happiness and glee
I stayed quiet
Alone, but not so lonely.
The end of this
Imposed solitude
Is coming,
And I yearn for
The wave of warmth
Your smile will bring.
If the mere thought
of you brings me joy
God bless me
With your return.
And I will be
Once again alive.
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