Dealing with Absence

Lately I've had to try to figure out how to stay positive in the extended absence of my husband (deployment), and friends going away who I tend to lean on. I really don't like the connotation of missing someone...because it truly focuses on something not there, a part of you gone, it's a taking away. So my current thoughts are pointed in the direction of the person's return. Focusing totally on the complete joy I will feel when I see my husband again...he'll have been gone 9 months total from June last year to July this year...a ton of time to be without your partner. I know when I see him, when I finally lay eyes on him, and see his smile again...my heart will not be complete...it will be running over with joy. I wrote this poem for all the people I used to miss, but for who now I simply appreciate and look forward to...

Longing

I attempted to fill my days
With friends and food
And light and work
But I lingered in my mind.

I fought to forget
Willed myself positive
Fresh, anew, focused
And yet languid time
Dragged and pulled me down.

While you flashed
With happiness and glee
I stayed quiet
Alone, but not so lonely.

The end of this
Imposed solitude
Is coming,
And I yearn for
The wave of warmth
Your smile will bring.

If the mere thought
of you brings me joy
God bless me
With your return.
And I will be
Once again alive.

Recharging - The Law of Attraction and renewing your commitment to it

The past few weeks have been kind of rough for me. I haven't lost weight (gained in fact), and have had some emotional ups and downs. I feel like I'm drifting away from my ideals, my desires, and losing track of what I really want. I have to recharge, rethink, refocus, and keep on moving...I wrote this..

The sun has climbed
Out of the wintry clouds
To kiss the backs of my hands
With warmth, with light.

For a minute feeling
A universe of energy
Entering my pores
Spreading its simple joy.

Flood me, fill me
With hope, with happiness
With some power
To hold back the fear.

It's not easy
It doesn't wait for you
To let go, to let it
Come in.
It flies in a moment
Hang on.

So that's what I'm doing, I'm hanging on...because I know I have faith and believe in this process. I'm going to do some reading today in the Ask and it Is Given book by Esther Hicks. In that book, they have a number of processes you can do depending on how you are feeling. In the coming days I'll discuss them as I attempt to implement them in my life.

Poetry Links

Here are links to my poetry pages:
http://www.geocities.com/fiennesite/2005-2007.htm

http://www.geocities.com/fiennesite/2002-2003.htm

Thanks for checking them out. If you want to comment on one, feel free to copy and paste it into a comment box.
To comment on my poetry, please go to my poetry blog:
http://marykirkpatrick.blogspot.com/
Thanks,
Mary

Thank You

Thank You

You may think
You're just an ordinary
Human being
Walking along, minding
Your own business.

But how could it be
That everything you
Say sounds right to me
Fits my feelings
Answers my questions.

Like cosmic crossroads
Brought you into my orbit
And I watch you wander
In the space of my world.
Wondering why, what for.

But I just don't care
You bring me peace
Instrospection, not selfcentered
narcissism,
Relief from my own
Downward spiral.

Such gratitude
Expression eludes me
Most of the time
When I'd just like to say
Thank You.